Musings
On why most hows should be whens and thus amenable to histories and heterotopias
Friday, August 27, 2010
Con-verse-ation
-- a third vector
to the rails.
bisecting everthing I see.
Rails go everywhere
like kites -tethered.
through mages of tarmac strips
smouldering in an Indian sun.
Some of them run parallel to my vision
I see them mirror trains-
containing my other half.
I raise a hand and it moves.
It is cut neatly in half.
Fat, flesh and half a heart.
Left half of the lung and only one leg.
And like me, it has no spine.
I raise my hand and it moves.
14 minutes
3:24 PM her: Bows and flows of angel hair and ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere, i've looked at cloud that way.
But now they only block the sun, they rain and snow on everyone.
So many things i would have done but clouds got in my way.
I've looked at clouds from both sides now,
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions i recall.
I really don't know clouds at all.
Moons and junes and ferris wheels, the dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real; i've looked at love that way.
But now it's just another show. you leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know, don't give yourself away.
I've looked at love from both sides now,
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions i recall.
I really don't know love at all.
Tears and fears and feeling proud to say "i love you" right out loud,
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds, i've looked at life that way.
But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads, they say
I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day.
I've looked at life from both sides now,
From win and lose, and still somehow
It's life's illusions i recall.
I really don't know life at all.
24 minutes
3:48 PM her: Don't keep calling, just forget me
You left me standing in the rain
Don't keep calling, just forget me
3:49 PM You left me standing in the rain
16 minutes
4:05 PM her: is deleting this account
4:06 PM don't send any mails to similar sounding ids coz there a qt a few wuchis ote there..
4:07 PM out
11 minutes
4:19 PM me: don't do this!
Thursday, May 24, 2007
“its so bad, its good”..!!
Camp is an aesthetic in which something has appeal because of its bad taste or ironic value. I am using camp here in a film-aesthetic sense.
My original intention was to write a somewhat (stilted)-male account of the apocryphal nature of the pleasure from movies, about the camp genre. The immediate reason for invoking such an impressive parade of expressions (jargons) being a hindi movie known as salam-e-isq. As I proceed in real time to pen (type) my words on to the word-processor here, the strands of thought are actually getting entangled giving me a vision of a route-map of
Voyeurism is a practice in which an individual derives pleasure from observing other people.
The moot point of my analysis is that scopophilia (i.e. a veritable addiction to movies) is voyeurism in the sense of using a peep-hole into the lives of others. Now I don’t claim to possess a scotopic vision (i.e. the ability to see in reduced illumination) here, so that my analysis would see through the dimly lit pathways of (Freudian or otherwise) domain of a priori intentions, motives, and actions involved in such a mass-consumed category of leisure time activity. I definitely claim to have seen some bad movies though.
We have witnessed the Govinda phenomenon over well nigh two decades now. My first movie of his was Hatya, where apart from his chi chi dance routine the camp element is pedestal!! The Govinda of Salam-e-Isq reminded me of the camp element ruling the roost in (popular) culture all over
Anyways, coming on to our “jatra” culture seen in Orissa/Bengal or Bhojpuri films or for the matter the (mainstream) regional movie/filmi-music scene, we see a phenomenon that’s no less than a revolution of sorts. People listen to these song and dance routines. Hum these songs. They are a rage. The politics behind this pleasure is a form of voyeurism that’s instant.
Titillation is direct derivation of pleasure from either tactile or visual stimulation that leaves nothing (much) to imagination.
Music is an art form that involves what are sometimes organised sounds and silence. It is expressed in terms of pitch (which includes melody and harmony), rhythm (which includes tempo and meter), and the quality of sound (which includes timbre, articulation, dynamics, and texture).
In the Harmonies, Bela Tarr’s erst-while mayor, is addicted to creating and commenting on music. His avocation may be dubious, but his attempts struck a chord in me (literally). He believed that the problem with harmonies created out of the common instruments is precisely its finesse, its perfection. He believed that once the chords are liberated from the imposed perfection, the true music will emerge. Whatever may be the flow of the movie from hereon, the point made makes sense in terms of the camp culture.
Shamanism refers to a range of traditional beliefs and practices concerned with communication with the spirit world, mostly animal spirits.
Juha Pentikäinen, in his introduction to Shamanism and Northern Ecology, explains how the Sámi drum embodies Sámi worldviews. He considers shamanism to be a ‘grammar of mind’, because shamans need to be experts in the folklore of their cultures. The rituals, shamanistic or pleasure-deriving have parallels as in they both involve a sense of letting go. In the former the gaze is from this word to an obscurantist spiritual one, whereas the latter is actually a gaze that is more lateral, but symbols here involve titillation that is direct. The Bhakti-movement involved oddly illogical discotheque type dancing, as did shamanistic rituals. Both used symbols that were directly comprehensible. The voyeur does not mind the wait, but he has a very small attention span. The time he exists in is that of a splice of 2 (could as well be more) different times coexisting. Work-time and leisure-time, contend with each other necessitating instant ‘gratification’. The bhakti-saints actually enacted the actions of their gods (
Friday, February 16, 2007
Ma, Sati, and Rand: (Midnight) Reflections on Femininity and Chastity
Continence, abstinence, reticence, (religious) piety..are some of the tropes which detail chastity. I am going to start with the most commonplace (!!) of icons of femininity –the housewife. The degrees of freedom (as it is understood in physics) available to this category of femininity is limited by the socially ascribed role(s) it is required to perform. Hence, the tropes are countable, finite..from an iconographic history point of view.
A housewife comes to be through a particular process of role-acclimation. It is a patriarchal thing. The classic tale of a domineering phallus. One of gradually showing her “her place”. This happens right in the beginning of the ‘conjugal’ (!!) role assumption, which mostly covers the ritual space from marriage to first few 'days' of marriage, the “Taming of the Shrew Phase”.
Segue-1
Taming of the Shrew
I was reading on the hoary bard of Avon. William Shakespeare lived in the Elizabethan era (mid-sixteenth to early seventeenth century). The Taming of the Shrew is a tale of (double-blind {!!}) deceptions, which finally resolves in the capitulation of Katherina (the willful and thus wild) to Petruchio with the (quoted) words describing the duties of a virtuous woman (gushed at the bidding of her husband, to the bemusement/horror of ‘the widow’ and Bianca, the ingénue, but about the “ingénues” later on):
And place your hands below your husband's foot;
In token of which duty, if he please,
My hand is ready, may it do him ease.
And Petruchio rewards the ‘wench’ with “come on ..you can.. kiss me now” (italics mine).
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Thoughts lost and regained!
Having a clear head is actually the opposite of having a muddled head, and both are equally amorphous categories. Here, I am losing my mind and was losing my mind slowly, with surgical precision and I am not even ranting and raving. In fact, I am losing mind and I know it. Has anyone ever heard of losing one's mind with a clear head! Isn't this somewhat akin to "methodical madness"?
But, dissecting myself with a conscious mind and steel hand is a funny feeling. Seeing my blood soaked viscera with with its fatty entrails with such clarity is quite humbling indeed.
But, I get up..take a swig of water..brace myself up for another bout with myself and tire myself to sleep..